Post by Kyle on Sept 16, 2015 22:42:10 GMT
This is probably going to get a little bit sappy and I'm Sorry
But when I met most of you, I had very recently realised that I was attracted to girls. Of course, I thought I was a lesbian at the time, since I'd never had any interest in boys and suddenly I was crushing majorly on my best friend. That went down well and said best friend is now my partner almost nine years later (I've known her sixteen years apparently but I only remember being close to her from around eight years old, we got together when I was thirteen).
Around that time I created my character Hikurox. He was the first ever xweetok in our then friendship group who wasn't heterosexual.
And for a long time I was the only one brave(?) enough to do this.
There were a lot of reasons I think, why no one else did it. The biggest probably because we were all based on neopets.com and homo is bad on neo.
When Autumn had Xencin he was gay, and I know Espeon had a few too - but my point is, characters who weren't cis and het were very rare back then.
I came to terms with, and came out as transgender almost five years ago. I applied for Evilia just after, who is male-to-female transgender and again, the first non-cis character in our group (within xwees anyway, idk if you guys had any non-neo based characters who weren't).
There were stages where I thought some of our friends may have been homophobic and/or transphobic. As far as I'm aware I was corrected and said person isn't on here anyway but it had me worried, especially when neo suddenly realised I'd been hiding homo on my neopets pages.
It's been a while, and I know especially during the QT era, lots of same-sex ships popped up and I was getting way more comfortable with expressing myself. I found out not everyone in the group was heterosexual, and while I think all of you are cis, I actually really hate what the "trans" label has become since everyone who assumes trans also seems to be otherkin or mentally ill or a slew of other things that I find really insulting (but that's neither here nor there). I'm actually more comfortable around people who are just..people. Don't need to list off their disabilities and quirks like medals. And sadly people like that tend to be cis, so finding trans people I'm able to stay friends with is super hard.
I was getting support though from almost everyone, about me being trans and about me going through a name change, and seeing everyone be more open with their characters in regard to sexuality was just giving me so much relief that the friends I'd found were not only incredibly accepting, but willing to embrace diversity in their own creations. I know people who refuse to write sexualities and gender identities that aren't their own out of a lack of understanding and a fear that they're going to insult someone.
I want to make it clear that personally, the only way you will ever insult me is if you tell me I am, in any way, wrong.
If you want to play with characters in regard to gender and sexuality, feel free to talk to me about anything because I've been dealing with this shit for nearly ten years and I've talked a number of people through their own identities; a few people who've been around in xwee groups too! I like to think I know what I'm doing and I'm not someone who's gonna be offended because a cis person wants to write a trans character (seriously the cishet stigma is the dumbest fucking thing to come from the internet in a long time).
This was all leading up to me saying:
This time next year I'll be on a waiting list for hormone therapy. And within the next three years I'll be starting my surgery.
I'm still alive thanks to the people I've remained close to, and most of you will hopefully see this message.
Thank you for growing up, being mature people around these issues, and for being so accepting; more so than my own family.
I'm even now at a point in my identity I don't even consider myself trans. Everyone around me has accepted me as male and as far I'm concerned that's just what I am - and it's thanks to everyone's support.
I love all of you.<3
But when I met most of you, I had very recently realised that I was attracted to girls. Of course, I thought I was a lesbian at the time, since I'd never had any interest in boys and suddenly I was crushing majorly on my best friend. That went down well and said best friend is now my partner almost nine years later (I've known her sixteen years apparently but I only remember being close to her from around eight years old, we got together when I was thirteen).
Around that time I created my character Hikurox. He was the first ever xweetok in our then friendship group who wasn't heterosexual.
And for a long time I was the only one brave(?) enough to do this.
There were a lot of reasons I think, why no one else did it. The biggest probably because we were all based on neopets.com and homo is bad on neo.
When Autumn had Xencin he was gay, and I know Espeon had a few too - but my point is, characters who weren't cis and het were very rare back then.
I came to terms with, and came out as transgender almost five years ago. I applied for Evilia just after, who is male-to-female transgender and again, the first non-cis character in our group (within xwees anyway, idk if you guys had any non-neo based characters who weren't).
There were stages where I thought some of our friends may have been homophobic and/or transphobic. As far as I'm aware I was corrected and said person isn't on here anyway but it had me worried, especially when neo suddenly realised I'd been hiding homo on my neopets pages.
It's been a while, and I know especially during the QT era, lots of same-sex ships popped up and I was getting way more comfortable with expressing myself. I found out not everyone in the group was heterosexual, and while I think all of you are cis, I actually really hate what the "trans" label has become since everyone who assumes trans also seems to be otherkin or mentally ill or a slew of other things that I find really insulting (but that's neither here nor there). I'm actually more comfortable around people who are just..people. Don't need to list off their disabilities and quirks like medals. And sadly people like that tend to be cis, so finding trans people I'm able to stay friends with is super hard.
I was getting support though from almost everyone, about me being trans and about me going through a name change, and seeing everyone be more open with their characters in regard to sexuality was just giving me so much relief that the friends I'd found were not only incredibly accepting, but willing to embrace diversity in their own creations. I know people who refuse to write sexualities and gender identities that aren't their own out of a lack of understanding and a fear that they're going to insult someone.
I want to make it clear that personally, the only way you will ever insult me is if you tell me I am, in any way, wrong.
If you want to play with characters in regard to gender and sexuality, feel free to talk to me about anything because I've been dealing with this shit for nearly ten years and I've talked a number of people through their own identities; a few people who've been around in xwee groups too! I like to think I know what I'm doing and I'm not someone who's gonna be offended because a cis person wants to write a trans character (seriously the cishet stigma is the dumbest fucking thing to come from the internet in a long time).
This was all leading up to me saying:
This time next year I'll be on a waiting list for hormone therapy. And within the next three years I'll be starting my surgery.
I'm still alive thanks to the people I've remained close to, and most of you will hopefully see this message.
Thank you for growing up, being mature people around these issues, and for being so accepting; more so than my own family.
I'm even now at a point in my identity I don't even consider myself trans. Everyone around me has accepted me as male and as far I'm concerned that's just what I am - and it's thanks to everyone's support.
I love all of you.<3